One speciality of mental health that I think is fascinating is the idea of high-functioning mental illness. I’ve written posts well-nigh high-functioning uneasiness and high-functioning peepers and plane though I’ve learned a lot well-nigh both over the years, there is still so much to learn. Lately, I’ve thought a lot well-nigh how my smart-ass works when I’m experiencing high-functioning uneasiness – the way I race to get things done, the pressure I put on myself to finish things by the wrong-headed (often unrealistic) deadlines I’ve set. Today, I want to reflect on why it can sometimes be challenging to race from one thing to flipside all the time.

By now, I’m so used to the feelings and sensations of uneasiness that it’s just flipside part of my day. Some days are worse than others, but it has wilt a (reluctant) companion through most of my life. The longer I’ve lived with my anxiety, the largest I’ve gotten to know how it impacts me. And there is nowhere I see this impact stuff greater than when I am experiencing high-functioning anxiety.

Oftentimes, I don’t plane know I’m dealing with high-functioning uneasiness until I’m once in it. My day will start out innocuously enough; I have things to get done, and I try to get them washed-up in the way that makes the most sense for me. Whether it’s for my job or outside of work time, there are some days that simply finger like one giant checklist. Sometimes I don’t think this is such a bad thing, but the way I deal with this is not unchangingly healthy or helpful.

When my smart-ass is in peak high-functioning mode, I’m jumping from one productive thought to another. Sometimes these thoughts are accompanied with tasks, but not always. Since my smart-ass often works faster than my body, I’m planning things and trying to make time for things that haven’t happened yet. I’m thinking five steps ahead, while forgetting the firsthand step I need to to take. All of a sudden and without meaning to, I finger like I’m doing everything and nothing at the word-for-word same time.

I don’t have a unconfined metaphor to describe how quickly my smart-ass flies from one thought to flipside when I’m like this. I finger like I’m implementation so much in my head, but that doesn’t unchangingly translate to what I’m doing. It’s scrutinizingly as if the value of tasks I have to do overwhelm my smart-ass to the point where I simply do nothing instead.

This feeling I have, it doesn’t last long. I like to think of it as a breaking point that I inevitably hit every now and then. I don’t unchangingly know my limits; when I reach them, sometimes I need a reset. Whether it’s few minutes or plane a few moments, when I have unbearable time to take a vapor and step when from myself, I can recover and move on. But feelings like this can sneak on all of us, and how we react to those feelings is what can lead us lanugo paths that either help or hurt us.

After many years of jumping from one thought to another, I’m less wrung of feeling this way than I used to be. It is simply a part of me now, flipside speciality of who I am. Rather than reject it or try to ignore it (as I did for years), I’m going to try and understand it. I’m going to try and learn from it, and see if I can understand myself increasingly in the process. It can finger scary to race from one thought to another, not feeling like we have any tenancy over this. But we can tenancy what we do well-nigh it, and that has made a world of difference for me.

Have you overly experienced something like high-functioning anxiety, or that your thoughts were jumping from one to flipside faster than you could handle them? What do you do when you’re experiencing something like that? Let me know in the comments!